An Impossible Healing pt. 1

Healing My Deafness with the Wild Power of an Untamed Imagination

Part 1

I spent many years discovering and working with the natural regenerative powers of the mind/body system, especially my own mind/body system. I taught myself, practiced and continue to practice healing myself using multiple avenues in my holistic practice, including engaging the Power of the Imagination.

One day, I realized that it had never occurred to me to try and heal my hearing. Somehow hearing and sight seemed to lay outside the realm of possibility.

The hearing in my left ear was gone and had been gone since summer of 1984. I turned over in bed one summer night and discovered that I had no hearing at all in my left ear. On one side I could hear all the night sounds of summer in the woods of upstate NY, and on the other, nothing. No one could explain what had happened and it was diagnosed as “Sudden, Unexplained Permanent Hearing Loss”. This was the Medical Diagnosis, which even the last doctor I saw said was basically translated as , “We don't know how it happens and there is nothing we can do about it.”

It was not a condition that lent itself to the use of a hearing aid. So, over the many years I adapted to hearing with only one ear. As an international instructor of Holistic Healing I often found myself teaching large classes in foreign countries. So listening and hearing was, needless to say, of crucial importance. One day one of the students got upset because she said she was standing right next to me, asked me something and I completely ignored her. One of my assistants passed on this information. The next day, with an apology, I announced my condition to the class and said, ”If you are standing and speaking to me on my left side, outside the range of my peripheral vision, I will not hear you, so please tap me (gently) on my shoulder!"

I decided that I had absolutely nothing to lose by trying this method of healing for my condition. And so I began.

First, I realized that I had utterly accepted as unchangeable truth, my deafness. I understood that I never thought about it except to struggle with the deafness, with the sadness of the loss, the struggle to hear in movie theaters, restaurants, large crowds, over the air conditioning, etc., etc.

One day, in 2011, after reviewing my experiences of healing my body of apparently "unhealable" things without the help of traditional medicine or doctors, ie: ruptured vertebrae, dance injury (1980,) bulging disc, ( 2007), annual bronchial pneumonia (1980's), I asked myself, why I did not consider or trust that I could heal my hearing?

I saw that I held a formidable belief that it was impossible, which of course made it impossible. I reflected upon the conversation between Alice and the White Queen in "Alice Through the Looking Glass" by Lewis Carroll,( the White Queen is talking about the odd effects of living backward in time, so that you remember what happened tomorrow instead of yesterday.)

"I can't believe that!" said Alice.

"Can't you?" the Queen said in a pitying tone. "Try again: draw a long breath, and shut your eyes." Alice laughed. "There's no use trying," she said: "one can't believe impossible things."

"I daresay you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half-an-hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."

*https://www.alice-in-wonderland.net/resources/chapters-script/alice-in-wonderland-quotes/

Tomorrow Part 2 :

“Six Impossible Things Before Breakfast”